I Have Found the One...

Today I left my cell phone at home, and I didn't get home until evening. I felt lost without it all day. Do you know that feeling? Well, multiply that by 10 (probably much more than that, actually), and that's how I've felt with my husband gone this week! It's amazing because I've always been very independent and have never really minded being away from him for a while. This...well, this has been different somehow. When we were first married, Jon went on these trips every year. AND he'd be gone MORE than a week. Distance definitely makes the heart grow fonder, but I'm realizing that it seems to be worse (the missing him) now that we've been married longer (5+ years now)!

You see, I've never struggled to stay busy. In fact, I planned several things just to keep myself occupied while he was gone on one of my three-day weekends, then through the week. (Of course, now I'm exhausted, but that's beside the point.) I've tried to look on the bright side of things to keep from moping, and here's what I've come up with:

I can eat macaroni and cheese, cereal, or curry chicken for dinner.

I can actually keep a full cabinet of glasses (dishes) and not find them all over the house.

I can go out to lunch with friends, shop, or go to an appointment after work and not have to consider what time I need to come home.

I can leave my exercise ball in the middle of the living room floor (where I use it) and not even put it away all week.

I can read at dinner time instead of cooking.

I can watch my own tv shows.

I can have some peace and quiet...

Really, no matter what I "can" do while my husband is away doesn't take the missing him away. God has reminded me of something this past week; all the scriptures that I would cling to when I was single and wondering when that special someone would come along are still true. "The Lord is my portion." He is the one that sustains me and keeps me. At the same time, this past week has opened my eyes to the fact that I have truly found the one whom my soul loves because I am just not the same without my wonderful husband, Jon! (Sorry for the sappy blog!)